Love Is Blind season 4 alum Marshall Glaze is opening up about his mental health struggles.
“Last year was just very tough for me mentally, and I was going to take my own life,” Marshall, 29, said on the Wednesday, June 4, episode of the “What’s the Reality?” podcast. “It just got to a point where, like, I had always been morbidly curious but never thought about how to do it.”
He added, “One day, I’m just down in the dumps [and] just crazy depressed. I feel like nothing is going right — that’s what my internal monologue is telling me. Those voices [of] that darkness just got a little bit louder, got a little bit darker and I felt, like, I was in this box and … it just felt, like, walls were just getting closer and closer, and nothing could lift me out of that.”
According to Marshall, he “knew he had a problem” after a specific conversation with his mother.
“I talked to my mom [and] I was OK with that being the last time I talked to her,” he recalled. “I was like, ‘OK, all right, you know, this is bad.’ I talk to my mom every day, multiple times throughout the day, and I was OK with that being the last time. So, I was going to do what I felt like I had to do — but I couldn’t.”
Marshall ultimately decided to “remove [himself] from that environment,” which meant leaving his home base in Seattle.
“[Sharing my struggles] helps me heal, and I hope that someone out there can resonate with that,” Marshall said. “[I hope] someone will [listen] and choose life.”
The Netflix personality has also learned that there’s power in not repressing his internal thoughts and feelings.
“It almost sounds silly, like, if I say what I was dealing with out loud. I’m like, ‘Bro, what? You good?’” Marshall added. “But, it’s just that internal monologue that drives you deeper down that hole. That’s why I feel it helps me [to] talk about it. Opening up about all things [like] suicide, depression and overall unwellness helps me realize that, ‘All right, maybe I was tripping up a little bit.’”
Marshall further said that it also helps to know that he’s “not alone.”
“When I do speak about it, there are just flooding comments of people saying, ‘I’m dealing with something too’ [and] ‘This helps me,’” Marshall said of sharing his experience via social media. “That’s why I continue with the social media content that I put out. I do fear that I am going down a dangerous route of becoming the face of that when I don’t feel, like, I have that … responsibility. That’s a weight I don’t feel I should carry because I’m not a therapist.”
Marshall is now trying to “transition a little out of” frequently sharing mental health struggles while still supporting others in similar positions.
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